Expecting

I am trying not to be to over the top but I can't help it. I AM HAVING A BABY!!!! AGAIN!!! We found out on Wednesday that we are expecting our 2nd child. What a surprise. As you may well know it has been a long hard journey for us to conceive a second child. I finally was ready to try some more drastic measures. On Friday the 6th I had called my Dr to have a procedure done that would hopefully render a child. They wouldn't let me buy the kit to do it with because they were upping the price and they didn't know what it was yet. Sop they were going to make me call back Monday and pay for it(you have to pay in advance as they are so expensive and not common). Well I for got to call Monday and Tuesday I was thinking why haven't I started yet?.... I have had all the symptoms for over a week now an Nada....so I got to thinking that I should take a test. The first test I took only colored half of the vertical line. So I wasn't sure if it was yes or no. The next one was a digital test (no screwing that one up), it came back as "see leaflet" R U KIDDING ME!! Well now I had to know so I called my DR. The next day I went to his office and the nurse said as soon as it hit the stick it went blue. "You are definitely Pregnant!" I was so happy to hear that but as soon as I left the office I was horrified that something might go wrong like the other two times. So I went back and said I really need to speak with my Dr. He saw me with no apt. and said that everything should work out this time. The problem was more in the conception part not the caring part. The last two must not have been good enough so my body kicked them out. But this one seems good. My hormone levels are high and I am having a lot of symptoms that I didn't have last time. With his reassurance I left the office. I called Brad right away and gave him the news...He is elated and still has a contact high....We were planning on waiting till I was thur my first trimester. We lasted one day. He wanted to tell one friend and I as well. Then He wanted to tell Zack and I gave in. All we had to say was"Zack we have a secret" and he said "YOUR ARE PREGNANT!!!" Looking right at me. Then he said "are you going to keep this one?" Break my heart kid. He has had so many questions and wants so badly to be in the room when the baby is born. I had to explain that I will probably have to have surgery and so he will have to wait outside and Dad will bring it out to see him. He has been asking so many questions Here are a few:
"can I name it?" he wanted to name it CUTIE
"can it hear me now?" he continued to ask about seeing, smelling etc.
" what is it going to eat?"
"when can it run"
" can it watch wrestling with me?"
I am so happy for him to be able to be a big brother. When he found out he wanted to tell his Teacher at school as we were going to parent teacher conference that night. So I thought sure no harm right. She gave us some really good advise, she said that we should make allot of this about Zack and not so much the baby, (the baby will get attention any way). Have a Big Brother Party for Zack instead of a Meat our new addition party. Zack doesn't strike me a jealous but hey I am willing to try anything to prevent that as long as possible.

Am I silly?

I can't figure out how to change the background for my blog from orange!!! I don't know what I did to get it this way and I really want to change it, any help? K so I guess I have more relevent things to say that boo hoo about my blog design.

Well here goes my random topics...

Temple

Yesterday we( meaning Me,Brad,Zack,Mom,Marilee and Colin) went to the new Draper Temple. It was so amazing to go inside and see all the wonderful artwork and beauty. It was really special for me to have Brad walking thru with me. He was really interested in the babtismal font. I think we will be doing alot of his family there someday. As we went thru to the rest of the rooms it was nice to have it almost silent. I almost wished that I would have had my own private tour. I could have stayed there for hours just reflecting and feeling the spirit. When we got to the sealing room there was a cute couple that gave a small talk about temple work and the importance of sealing. The wife stood and told us about her daughter who had had a hard time getting pregnant, it was a long road but finally she concieved...twins... only to have them both be still born. With the commitment that she and her husband made to be sealed together she knows that those two little boys will be with them in the after life. It was like she was speaking right to me. It is no small secret our troubles having more children, I had a thought, wth the two children that I have lost are they gone forever, or will I be able to claim them as mine in heaven,or were they never really mine because they were not "born" to us? Things I can't change and really I am not in the position to claim any thing in heaven so I am worrying for no reason.

Well after the tour we went to the church next to the temple and had some cookies and water. There were a few displays that had Pic of Temples. Brad and I were looking at a few and discussing the ones that we liked the most. I lean toward that riggid caslte like the Manti, but I think Brad said something like none compare to the SLC. It was nice looking at them together.

We then went outside to take pictures. Zack was really excited to take some pics as he couldn't take any inside the temple. He found a camera at the park and we let him keep it(what else to do?) so here are some that were taken by him...and colin helped with the ones Zack is in.